Coming Down

I come down a lot
I turn on the lights
Making promises of peace tonight
I shut the door
Quick I tell my lies
Before I bend my knees
Oh I refuse to give or take an inch
And I won’t bend or break
Oh I come down a lot

I shut the door to keep you out
I lean myself against this wall
Do anything to keep the weight of the world
From falling down, from falling down
Around me

I am terrified of falling
I feel myself burning
I am buried with confession
I can’t get the words out
And I’ll fall apart if it all comes down
And I am scared to be broken
But you can take the fear apart
And you can break me

I am swallowed up by pride
I live inside myself
Telling lies and it’s so cold
I won’t bend or break
I won’t give or take an inch

And all these promises I break
They take my strength
I am slowly dying
I die a little every day
Oh I come down a lot

I am terrified of falling
I feel myself burning
I am buried with confession
I can’t get the words out
And I’ll fall apart if it all comes down
And I am scared to be broken
But you can take the fear apart
And you can break me

not the girl you think i am
i keep myself afloat
by holding on to moonlight
i break, i'm regularly held together
with pieces of string
formed from the words you say

what of my strength is not a farce
naught of my life is without darkness
i am not the girl you think i am
i need you like i need the air
i breathe and gasp when you are there
for i am always needing you near

what has god done with his cruel fates
to let the light fall on my empty spaces
my frailty slips into my hope of your hands
to know you live in this space but you do not take
i'm not the girl you think i am
in these days i am the needy and poor
the illiterate, the follower, the something more

you are a tattoo under my skin
a word and a line from a song
i'm still trying to write
but you are the rhythm
you are in my heart tonight

your skin on my skin
is a memory, the future of everything
your skin on my skin

your words in my ear
your love in my hands
your touch is my life
you are in my heart tonight

your skin on my skin
the future of everything
the tattoo under my skin
you are in my heart tonight

the spirit draws near
when we are close
as we are closer and closer

over and over and over
over and over and over
you are in my heart tonight
you are in my heart tonight

oh today why couldn't you be
a little more like the coffee guy
for he is sweet and kind
and always looks me in the eye
notices the little things and
how i like my drinks, the time of the day
and where the lie of the land is
he knows with just three words
and i would like to taste his lips
but there is no heart on the line
with that one, not like with you

for you look me in the eye and straight away
you know more than i decided to give away
i'm a dead giveaway
you know how i like my things, my drinks, my funny ways
you fight me anyway on the ones you take your pride in
i have no pride around you anyway

oh just for today
if there were no consequences and no regrets
i would take your lips and claim them as my own
even for a day in summer sun have a dream of you again